LIKE THE SUN

My heart has a tendency to find one more reasons to give him another chance. All the red lights in front of me and i only see blue. I only see him. I am still feeling onto our memories. They warm me up from the outside and break me from the inside. The thing about hearts is that they break and they forgive. I still can’t give sense to it. The thing about the sun is that it still comes up even when it keeps leaving million of times. It reminds me of myself. I still come up at his sky. I still want him...

I don’t know. That’s all I can say. I don’t know if I love him, but I know I have strong feelings for him. I don’t know if I want him, but I know that I don’t want to lose him.

I don’t know if he’s right for me, but I know I want to give him a chance.

Everyone tells me that I will know when it feels right, that if I’m scared it means I’m not ready. But what can I do when I’m already in so deep that I can’t find my way back up? 

What happens if I actually want to give us a chance, even if I’m not even completely sure of my feelings.

Does that make me a bad person? 

Is it bad that I’m jumping into the unknown without knowing if I’m ready beforehand?

Everyone says that love is magical, that you won’t have a doubt in your mind and that when it’s right, you’ll know.
But I don’t know anything. I’m scared that I’m just going to end up hurting not only myself but him as well. I’m scared that I don’t fully know what I’m getting myself into. I’m just scared and I don’t know what to do anymore.